A Song For The Less Bitter


I once tried to be friends with this guy. He was a perceived solution to a deep longing for belonging – of sharing similar interest of renovation, interior design, music and getting dance floors pumping. We could talk kitchen taps for hours. I believed – and still believe – that we could have been great friends. 

He at one point sent me an acoustic recording of a song he’d written, asking if I’d like to write some alternative lyrics. It was called “Song for the Bitter”. An angry heartbreak song. I listened to it once, twice, three times, then wrote these lyrics in half an hour, recorded it in one take on my iPhone at the kitchen table, and sent it back to him. I called it “Song for the Less Bitter”.

Some things should not be overthought.

He never really commented on it. Maybe he overthought it…

It’s still a break-up song, sad but not bitter. Letting go is hard and painful. Sometimes we hold on for too long, afraid of that pain. Telling ourselves the lie that we don’t know that life has other plans. That we don’t know that it’s time to let go. I kept his “Do What You Want”. It beautifully illustrates the point where we’ve stopped holding on, but are not yet truly letting go. We feel powerlessness, not acceptance.

It was never recorded to be shared, and I feel a bit self-conscious about it since I’m not a singer, I’m a lyricist, but here it is:

VERSE 1
Do what you want
I don’t care about it
Do what you want

Go if you want
I’m not standing in your way
Go if you want

BRIDGE
I’ve prepared myself for this moment for so long
Knowing one day when I wake up you will be gone

CHORUS
You smile, I’m crying
My tears are poison to your heart
We love, I’m lying
The lies are tearing me apart
But we close our eyes and sigh
All along we’ve known that some love must die

VERSE 2
Leave if you can
But pack my pain and take my tears
Leave if you can

Do what you need
We’ve been holding on for years
Do what you need, leave if you can!

BRIDGE
Our love was never right but it was strong
It kept us hostage, when we both knew we had to move on

CHORUS
You hide, I’m crying
My tears are poison to your heart
We love, I’m lying
The lies are tearing me apart
But we close our eyes and sigh
All along we’ve known that some love must die

MIDDLE
Doors are closing we must never go back never go back
Back again
Hearts are bleeding, we are letting them mend letting them mend
Mend again
Again

VERSE 3
Do want you want
I’m not even gonna look
Do want you want
Leave me alone
I don’t want to show my tears
Do want you want, leave me alone!

BRIDGE
I’ve prepared myself for this moment for so long
Knowing one day when I wake up you will be gone

CHORUS
You lie, I’m crying
My tears are poison to your heart
We love, I’m lying
The lies are tearing me apart
But we close our eyes and sigh
Cus all along we’ve known that this love must die

gary-bendig-192233

What do you feel?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s